Faithfulness!!

Hello Peeps ... how you all doin?

I thought I'd update you briefly about what's happening in the crazy chaos that is my life!!

I have not moved away from home which I thought I was going to .... so I'm still in the sunny northeast .... and I'm really quite content with that!

My job situation has worked out so well.... I am working around 2.5 days a week and am financially more secure than I was was before the summer (when I was practically working full time!). This means I have more time on my hands to do the things I love most, talking to God, wirting and working on my keyboard and Guitar playing.

How great is our God!!!!

It's unbelievable how things fall apart yet he makes them fall back together in better and more beautiful ways.

A few weeks ago I was distraught, no job, disappointed with stuff, personal difficulties and struggles.

Now my job situation is ideal for me, I am making some cool new friends in Church, it appears that exciting things are happening at Church and I'm really excited about that. Plus I have much more time on my hands to write and play .... I'm so thankful that regardless of my state of Heart and mind .... God is always faithful and Good to me.

Crackin stuff!!

Hope you are good

Take care

Jayne

Uncertain yet still Upbeat!!

Hi People ... How are you?

I'm still very much up in the air in terms of the uncertainty of my life and the direction it could take! It's so unbelievable how things can fall apart - and then you can be so kicked while you're down. The wierd thing is ..... I should be really worried and stressed and hurt and anxious .... and on one level I know I do need to get my head, heart and future sorted fairly quickly ... but honestly, I've never felt this much at peace in a long long time!!

I was writing in my journal the other day, making two lists (I love making lists, especially 'to do' lists - they make me feel like I'm acheiving something just by writing the stuff down! Dont mock me - you know I'm not the only one who does this!!).

Anyway....I had one list of things which I was doing, and which were secure four months ago. It included things like the places I was employed, budgets, and personal stuff about how I felt, friendships, family stuff etc.

Then I wrote another list of what the situation is like now - and all of the things which I had written as 'securities' four months ago, have now either disappeared, or have taken a serious battering. Added to the list are new personal difficulties and battles I'm facing at the moment.

What interested me was that as I was writing (and when I write I dont really tend to think too deeply, it just sort of pours out of me onto the page/screen) at the end of the second list I wrote 'needing God'.

As I read over the lists it really hit me that in the first list I didn't mention God at all and in the second list I was 'needing God'. Maybe there's some kind of lesson there? I could write and write here about what I feel that showed me, and what that has showed me about my faith, and faith in general .... but I have to go now (my Mam is waiting to have lunch with me!!). I'll leave you to ponder on that and I'll elaborate next time.

Until then ...... be Good and take care

Jayne

Disappointment

You ever get the feeling the world is out to get you? When everything ... I mean everything which you rely on (in earthly terms) lets you down or is disappointing? Families can be a source of great joy, or great dread and pain. Friends, as great as they are can sometimes be hard to find. Jobs - here today and gone tomorrow! And to top it all off you can feel like you are so misunderstood and that you are letting people down by not functioning in the way they expect you too .... even though you are still only trying to do the right thing.

As if that wasn't enough to think about I still get shocked by the lack of integrity in the world .... and the dishonest way in which people are capable of dealing with each other. To be frank....it stinks!

Sorry about the whinge people, but it says on the top of the page that this is where I write whatever I feel like writing about, and right now - I'm disappointed! Can you tell!!!

Regardless of life's trials ..... It's still a reassurance to know that God's got my back ... there's still no better place to be as long as I'm with Him.